Testimonial with Grace

Grace is from Nairobi, Kenya, and was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder early this year (2025).

I am already tearing up before writing anything.
My heart is beyond broken, as it always has been.

My diagnosis came early this year even though I had always suspected it for years. It was a relief to me. A huge relief because when we identify a problem, we can figure out how to solve it and also, once I have a name to it, I don’t have to chronically punish myself every waking moment of my life for things that are sometimes beyond my control.

My family is the wildest. My sister has referred to me as a crazy woman more times than I can count and my mom has always been an enabler to her bullish behavior.

I have been admitted for Chronic su*c*dal ideations, severe depression and anhedonia. I had ketamine infusions and left feeling better. I am alone. My family doesn’t really care. All my relationships are intense, and I feel alone 90% of the time. I feel su*c*dal 99% of the time. I wish I could add bits of resilience to this, but it’s really not possible. I look forward to more chapters. I pray they be better.

I am a full-time empath and not the awful, explosive person people think I am.